yearning

i wanted him that night....and yet i still want him now....i really wanted to kiss him....that night i can't believe that my yearning lead to what i did...it's amazing....that i went that far with someone who doesn't even love me....why the hell does it have to be this hard for me to let go of him....why can't we just love each other....why the hell does it have to hurt so much when i see him.....but why do this yearning kill me....I WANT YOU!!!! DAMN IT I WANT YOU!!!I WANT YOU IN SO MANY WAYS THAT IT HURTS!!!KISS ME SO I CAN JUST LET IT GO!!!!